I’ve been churning that around in my head for quite a few months lately. I haven’t been able to pinpoint “one” specific thing that was putting me in a funk ! Mainly because…there are MANY !! haha But today….sitting on the floor at work…looking over some charts…I found myself subconsciously listening to the conversation that was going on all around me at my office. AND IT HIT ME !! THIS is “ONE” of the things that’s been bothering me…even without me realizing it.
I went to work for our school district, in the administration building, almost two years ago. From the time I’ve walked in..there has been talks about money..budget cuts, etc… Which of course seems pretty normal. Basic fact of life… things have to be trimmed, smarter decisions made, etc….. But starting about 7 months ago…this conversation took a different turn. Discussions started happening of people being laid off..moved around..you name it..it’s been talked about. At one point I wasn’t even sure if I was going to have a job….and still don’t know if that’s certain…or if I will stay at my current location. The district voted on providing a “buy out plan” to certain employees…if they wanted to retire early. People seem to be dropping like flies…and even more changes will be forthcoming. “Insecurity” would be considered the operative word of the day.
Then you go home to face your own giants of…lack of money…how are we going to do this…will this ever work out? I feel like I’m engulfed in a pool of “the unknown” and I can’t seem to swim out. You flip on the tv hoping to escape….and suddenly you’re encountered with the desperate needs of the world…lack of money…politics..tragedy, etc….. So much negativity ! It can be overwhelming !
It’s hard to be faced with this on a daily basis and still stay your positive, upbeat self. It’s hard not to feel weighted down, depressed, emotional….. On top of that….add a good dose of hormones, kids leaving home, changes in the family structure…and you have a MESS on your hands =( …OR what’s better known as “ME” !! =) I make no excuses……just trying to survive “the ride” !
One thing that I do know and holds steady for me is this….”Don’t worry about anything; instead, pray about everything. Tell God what you need, and thank him for all he has done. Then you will experience God’s peace, which exceeds anything we can understand. His peace will guard your hearts and minds as you live in Christ Jesus.” Phil 4:6-7 ~One of my favorite verses !!
While these situations may seem as a negative and a struggle to us, it's an opportunity for God to show himself true in our lives and to provide for us! It's also a time of learning to trust in Him, which for some reason, it tends to be hard for us! God knows our situations and has specifically placed us in each one of them because He is hoping we will fall down on our knees and recognize we can do nothing without Him. :) Praying for you!
ReplyDeleteThanks Kayla....I can use all that I can get =)
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